Ok well i dont know whats the proper begening but im just gonna say it. All my life I have ben despreat to find a boyfrind. find someone who can lift me up in his arms and say he loves me. a prince charming. but we all know life is never a farytale. So i just gave up soon enuf, i dident kere anymore becouse everytime i got my hopes up it would soon be demolished. but resentely i went to a resturant with my family and my mother was all about how there was a boy same age as me, ususely when this kinda of setuation comes up i just go big hearted and start dreming. but this time i was liek hell with it so i jhust went with them becouse i kinda was forced to. at the party there relly was a boy my age. but he was the handsomest guy ever! trought the whole party/resturant w.e you call it. i was shy, i was olso with my sister so if anything i would talk about nothing in pertecilur with her just to seem like i was actuelly having fun but no! i was mesrebol i felt so uncomfertibol...i wanted to go home. so later on i just jumpe dup and went outside wanting to olredy go home.


as i was standing outside my mom came out and so ded that boy and well she was all like hay ill live you guys for a min talk and get to know eachother and stuf. i was lening on the wall wanting to strangol my mother for leving me alone with him. but it wasent bad actuelly...he trid asking me sum questions and stuf, i feel so bad! becous ei was such and ass i just gave him one word answers and i was scered....i dident know what to do. so i think i came off like a jackass and i regret it dearely! he relized that iw as uncomfertibol or suting so he went in. i just took out my cell and started diling my frinds number telling her everything. when he came back out he relized i was on the phone i dont know but its as if he wanted to talk to be but he was neves to i coght glimpses of him while talking on the phone...god damn it i feel so bad the way i behaved in that situation ofcurse theres more to it but that pretty much summened it up.

then my mom came out and called me over we all startet chating away and for the summer i was planing on moving away im from republic of georgia but theres a big war there now so the plans were cnasoled but at taht time i dident knew no one ded that it was gonna be a boelign wor and everything would be cansoled so he told me how he would like to change hes plain tickets just for me, so me and him can go on the same plane at the same time you get the point, i was wow amazed! hes parents agreed to it as well ebcouse he wa sin no hurry hes home schooled so he dosent have time lemetations on when the school starts and stuf. and nether do i. i was so happy inside i was all jumping and stuf but phesecely i was all like cool, sweet, just plaing like a cool jackass guys you see on the TV the ignorent ass hole. thats was liek 1mnth ago and i cant get him out of my HEAD! o m g...i have never ben this amazed bye a guy before. and im to scered and shy to call him even tho we extanged #. i dont know, i just had to say this u know? get it out of my system. he prbetly dosent even wanna bother with me oltho im sure he just wants to be frinds...or am i? >.< i wanan hit my self with a shovel i dont knwo what is actuelly inside hes head what he thinks of me or what he dosent. i dont know...but im not geting my hopes up even tho my frinds are all like "omg yaoi time!" -.- i....i dont know, do you see how confuzed i am? p.s hes never ben in u.s for longer then a week. so maby he just thinks im cool and idk wants to be my frind. its just my frinds confuze. what do you guys think? am i an idiot or what? T.T

~L~

I doubt you've known him long enough to be in love with him, but you're certainly heavily infatuated. There really are not any simple answers. You just have to see where things go. The first thing is to find out of he is either gay or bisexual. If he is, then you can explore it further to see if he likes you. I think too many times we get ahead of ourselves, but that's because 1) the heart wants what it wants and 2) we all have a longing to love and be loved. I've always thought the best advice comes from an old song by the Eagles called "Take it Easy". The song says, "Take it easy. Take it easy. Don't let the sound of your own wheels drive you crazy." Take some time to relax and enjoy life. If it is meant to be yours, it shall be in time. If not, there are other roosters in the hen house.

tiger your olways helpful, your very wise, Thanxxxx

I very much agree with all of Tim's advice except for one thing:



That certainly needs to come before any love, romance, or relationship stuff, but I think the first thing you need to do is call the boy! You'll never find out if he's gay/bi if you don't!

Like Tim said, take it easy and relax, but at least call him and make an effort to get to know him. If nothing else maybe you'll make a new friend


-Kevin

call him? oh god ill pass out the moment he picks up his phone....im sure its not love but its the bigest crush iv had ever. well mabe the second bigest...idk i dont think im brave enuf to do that...besides if he like me or idk something like that he has my # 2 why can the call? the more i say if he liked me i feel like im jenxing it more. im sure hes str8. i just need to shut up >.<

Uh... maybe because he thinks the same as you do? Just take a deep breath, pick up the phone, and call him. Just say 'hi' and start a conversation about some movie you've just seen or TV show or song or whatever. Start a conversation! Nothing will happen until you do. Nothing bad will happen if you do. Stop being a wimp. Go for it, bro!

Colin

...well um i kinda texted him...i was like hay um if u need someone to talk to or just want to chill give me a call. and he was like yeah sure thanks. I tried i relly ded...

Sounds like you're off to a good start- opening the door.

Now let's work on that pesky fainting thing....

And then... learn how to talk on the telephone. It might seem hard, but it isn't. You dial his phone number (you know his phone number, right?). When someone answers the phone, ask for him. If it's him, say "Hi. Hey, it's (insert your real name here). I was just sittin' around nothin' to do, and I was thinking about (insert something you're comfortable talking about here, like a song you just heard, or a new album, or... hey, figure this part out yourself!). Texting in this situation sux bigtime. It will get you nowhere. You need to talk to him. It's a lot easier to do that over the phone. I think you need to try harder. Don't freakn' leave it up to him!!!!!!!

Colin

I happen to agree with colinian on this one. Talking on the phone is a lot easier than you might think it is. It's a good way to figure out common interests. Once those are established, you can talk for hours, and that is a good thing. You'd be surprised at how much more open the conversation will be. Good luck.

oh brother...>.< thanx guys for tring to help me. slowely by slowely im geting started...not yet but i am...plus hes the one who plays football isint he suposto be mor eoutgoing and not shy...? eh -.- all i need to do is breath im a try...

Hehehe, you have a cruuuuuuuuush. Okay, call him, talk to him, and don't be afraid to interact with him.

Now, a bit of a cautionary thing... you can always hope for everything, but you shouldn't ever expect it. Those are different things, and if you start expecting things then you'll likely get let down. Be careful about how much you invest yourself into this, and always remember that there's a load of other boys out there.

Also, you are so not in love, lol. It's one of those infatuation things, totally different feeling, but it's sooooo strong that it's easily mistaken. I'll say you love him when you can tell me his favorite color, his shoe size, the name of his first pet, his favorite bands, an incredibly annoying thing you put up with just because there's so much good to outweigh it, and the position in which he most often falls asleep.

Right it's just a crush, it may go away soon. might come back or have some remaining feelings.

Very well said, Jamie!