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Oh whatever I decide, but be warned, it may contain D/s and BDSM content, or not. 

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You're a What?

Just a bit of background...   As I went through my younger years I found that other’s seemed to naturally follow me, and look to me for direction. As sex came into the picture, it was the same in the bedroom. I learned that I liked to lead play there, liked my partners to be submissive. I thought simply that I was a top, I am, but I am more.   I am what is known as a Dominant, a Dom. It is not about being a brute or sadist (well it is if you are a sadist). It is about honesty

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Worthy

How do you tell someone who can't see themselves, they are worthy … of love … of life?   I see the dark circles under your beautiful brown eyes And I wonder how I can fix it … Fix all the wrongs done to you in your life How can I take that pain from then and now? You do not see your own strength within you Life dealt you a bad hand You lived through pain, and horrors I cannot imagine I can only promise to be with you To hold you

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Who W/we Are

Who W/we Are   First if I am out of bed at this god-forsaken time something is on my mind. Right now, it is the feeling I must defend who and what tim and I are, and how we live. I likely don’t. This will likely be repetitive. But I don’t care. Better out, than in! I am a Dom. A Dominant man. I have a boy … who is my submissive. That does not mean only that I take the dominant role in sex. Our lifestyle is one of Dominance and submission, it is a partnership. tim, m

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When You're Weary

And I am … weary that is.  There are times I just want peace, selfishly for myself. Fighting tim's depression, mood swings and self-loathing, wears me out, it tires me and breaks my heart. And today when I bent to pick up his ART meds, he no longer wants to take … today I wondered why I continue. That scared me, that question, because never before have I asked it. Valentine's Day is the worst day of the year, for him and so for me.  It brings memories to my sweet husband, things, time

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When Three Is Not A Crowd

I suppose this piece should have a WARNING … if you are closed minded, cannot deal with things outside your own experience or what you think is 'normal', or believe that relationships with more than two people are wrong. DO NOT READ THIS.      I have never been conventional. Well, I say that, yet, I wanted to be married. But I also believe you can love more than one. I believe that bringing others into a relationship for friendship and sex is a good thing and that it can work

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What I Want

I read about what people say about lockdown and this pandemic. I watch my beautiful boy suffer from sadness he doesn't understand. Watch him choke back tears he doesn't know why he's crying. In the dark of night I hold him close when his dreams are bad and when he needs the comfort of my skin.  I listen to people complain about how hard it is. How they want normal back.  I wonder what normal is gonna look like? I am lucky that I have tim with me. Lucky that I can hold him close an

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What I Think

WARNING ***Discussion of race, religion, bigotry lies ahead. It's what I feel and think. If you don't like what I feel and think feel free to ignore this blog. If your mind is closed, do not read this blog. If you are afraid of your own truth, do not read this blog. If you are looking for honesty and acceptance, I hope you choose to read on. ***   I've been thinking about what is going on in our world besides COVID-19. I wish it wasn't what has been happening. I've been debating saying

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We Feign Nothing - A look at the BDSM lifestyle.

First of all this is no attack on how you or anyone else chooses to live, that is up to each of us to decide. This blog is simply an answer to a few things I read in an article the other day. It called itself an introduction to the BDSM lifestyle. I found much of it offensive, rather like most looks at our lifestyle are. What did I read? ·         That submissives feign their subservience. ·         That Dominant tops only act dominant, because we need to be nurturing and loving

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Vows

The other evening a friend said to me; "The hard times are when I think about my vows to my husband. And that helps. We all have troubles, but we can be the constant in the lives of those we love. There's something sublime and wonderful about that." He's right, of course. Being there for others, a partner or friend, is a wonderful feeling.  Those vows we make when we marry are not just words to be said because 'that's what you do'.  No. They are and should be words held in the highest regar

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tim

Warning: D/s BDSM subjects... some mention of sex, oral sex.        I met tim serving lunch at the mission where we both volunteered. He was less than impressed with me and not interested in my good cop-self. That was fine, but I knew it wouldn’t stop me. I would have that sweet skinny-assed boy.   Though I knew he’d be mine, I also knew his back story. I knew I had to be careful. I knew I had to take my time.   After finishing with serving lunch, the vol

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This Dom's Pledge

We talk often together about our lives, about D/s and what it means to all of us here who have chosen this lifestyle. I say choose, but is it a choice?  I could never choose to be submissive, just as tim could not be a Dominant.  But as we are, we are two halves, and only together are we whole.    as always, for my sweet boy, I leave you this;     This Dom’s Pledge   As days tumble into years you are still with me. A gift, as precious to me as any tr

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Thinking Out Loud

In amongst our little group online there has been a lot more talk of D/s, or BDSM lately. Which I like, since sharing information makes us more real and less something to be stared at and whispered about. I know it’s come as a surprise to some that I have a good sense of humour and enjoy a good laugh. There is more to each of us than most people think. We are not the porn-style stereotypes people usually imagine us to be. BDSM and D/s are not porn. But our life, like everyone’s has ser

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Things Don't Always Work Out

Like the title says not all things in life work. It's a shame, but it's true.  My desire for our new boyfriend to become more in our little family didn't come to fruition. He decided it wasn't right for him and moved on. I've talked to him, but we'll leave it here for the moment.  All of this was hard on tim. Especially since he'd grown so close to Jim.  tim is willing to continue on this adventure - he has a big heart and wants to make me happy - but we will see.   I am awar

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Tanka

Oh, writing Tanka, following AC's new Guide..  Here they are good or bad.    Walking through the snow it squeaks under my black boots; I tighten my coat however when I reach you there's no coolness in your arms Snow tops the feeder before I add fresh birdseed; the brave nuthatch waits unconcerned about my size; sure of his heroic heart    

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Supporting Your Local Poets

The other day, my husband tim told me about a little poetry challenge on GA, offered by @AC Benus  He had decided to rewrite his Tanka Poetry prompt.  I decided to 'support my local poet' and offer myself up as a guinea pig. But frankly, I had doubts even though I've written some okay poetry, following the instructions and writing something 'properly' rather worried me.    But, I just had to try.    So I read the prompt.. Tanka's should be personal, emotional, show how t

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Subs' Mindset

This blog is more about BDSM and D/s from my sub, tim and his conversation with a fellow sub molly's, perspective. Many of you know molly and she is the sub belonging to her Sir, Phil.  These two met on GA, when no one they knew were ‘out’ as submissives.  For a long time tim wasn’t, he hid this from people but grew tired of hiding. When he opened the Drop in Centre, he asked me for permission to come out, and though I had some reservations, I gave it. You’ve heard a lot from me and M

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Submission - a poem

You requested a poem .. here you are   Submission   You kneel before me unclothed Like you’ve done a thousand times Knees spread apart So you’re open to me, vulnerable   I walk around you saying nothing Your head is bowed in submission Hands on thighs You know to whom you belong   Your back marked from our play Pain you will carry for days Borne with dignity Your strength a source of pride   You are my

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Right Now

My husband has gone to bed. his life right now ... I pause because I cannot think of the words ... his life right now is sadness and chaos.  And I am not sure why.  his days are filled with Prime TV and pills that numb him.  I cannot fix him. Doctors tinker but the result is the same.  They say time heals. But there is something inside him I cannot reach and he cannot stop.  It makes me feel impotent and helpless.  I wonder how much time this will take.  But in the face of th

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Rant

Changes are needed in our world.  So many of them it's hard to sort out.  Life is a gift.  Yet we take it lightly. We disrespect it.  Why, in this day and age, we fear our differences is frankly, stupid, ignorant and childish.  We live in an age of great knowledge. We live in great melting pots filled with people from everywhere. And rather than stop and learn about each other, we hide in the corner like frightened children.  Stop blaming. Stop being afraid. We are all just human

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Pledge

Pledge   Our lives have slowly changed Not for the better I’m afraid I have to be your man again Will be The one you deserve and desire So things will change Of that be sure You will be mine again, boy   Interesting session with a psychologist who is a counsellor to those of us in BDSM or D/s lifestyle, I wasn’t sure what to expect. Dr. R greeted us both, we sat, and he sat within a small grouping of chairs.   He largely ignored ti

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ONLINE: Be safe, be private

On GA we have a great and friendly community.  I've enjoyed my time here. I have met some wonderful people. I accept these people for who they are here, online.  I use my real first name, Michael or Mike.  I do not share my real surname here or on my email address. I believe in privacy.  People can accept that or not.  The majority I have met, do. The internet is a tool. It has much to offer and much to answer for.  We need to be careful online and respectful of others. Much

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On Your Knees, Boy

I, dressed only in black denims and boots Watch you strip down to nothing You are always unclothed, baring all to me For you belong to me, you are mine   You stand at room’s centre, in submission Rising for my chair I circle you, gaze at you When my hand caresses your back you flinch The skin there still soft, unscarred, sweet   You utter no sound as I walk around you I want you, desire you, control you My own manhood, hard, wanting

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Marriage, boys, and husbands

I know I’ve said this before; I always wanted a marriage like my parents have. Of course, I knew it wouldn’t be traditional, given the fact I am Gay, but I wanted it all the same.   As I hung with friends, played baseball and hockey, went through school, I came to realize I was often assuming a dominant position, and often asked to lead. It was sort of a natural thing.  I ended up in school taking criminology and socio-legal studies, and received my degree. I went on to become a police

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Lyric

I must say I struggled with this one. And I am sorry there is only one. However, here it is and it has been hopefully improved somewhat after a talk with AC.  This one is about our last trip to the hospital …     I force you to the hospital and you won’t recall it you fight me like a frightened thing because you are hurting   You, my love are so very strong yet you are made of glass the hidden flaws begin to show widening t

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Life At Ours

I've wondered for a while if I should talk about things going on in my, our, lives.  I'm not much in the way of an attention seeker. I've always found being who I am attracts enough attention without me seeking it.  I returned to school last year, I'm nearly done the first part of the course I'm taking: cybersecurity.  It's in line with what I used to do, and what interests me and what I know can contribute. I'll look for a job in that field once I'm done, but I know there will be more scho

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