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The Secret Life of Billy Chase - 21. Chapter 21

May 26th

-Well, the GOOD news is that I'm actually off the hook! Thank GOD! If Simon thought anything 'funny' about my behavior on Friday, he didn't say anything to anybody about it. At least I don't think he did. The BAD news, however, is that I sorta spoke to him in the halls today, and he acted kinda weird towards me. Not rude, or dissmissive, or even a decent cold shoulder. Just not his usual self. Of course, his sniffles and all were just now getting better, so maybe he's just getting over his cold. But I don't think he's forgotten about what happened between us a few days ago. I don't think he WILL either. That sets the curse in stone, right there. I'm NEVER going to have sex with Simon. Not ever. Sighhhh...it looks like someone else I might as well just scratch off of my 'happy' list. Shit...I was really hoping to get with him too. I gotta admit, I'm kinda hurt.

One strange occurrence that I ran into today...I was going to the bathroom in the West wing of the school between classes, and when I walked in I saw Jimmy LaPlane crying in front of the mirror over the sink. I mean...like really CRYING this time. I'm surprised that I hadn't heard it from outside. He could see me in the reflection of the mirror as soon as I walked in, and snatched a few paper towels to dry his eyes with. Naturally, I thought that someone must be fucking with him again and hurt him in some way. I wish those assholes would just leave him ALONE, you know? But when I asked him what was wrong, all he could tell me was "Nothing." That's what he said. Over and over again, everytime I asked. In fact, he dried his tears up, and gave me such a serious face that I pretty much had to believe him. Hell, he even smiled at me, right in my face, as though he wasn't just crying a second ago. I'll have you know that I happen to be the champion of swallowing emotions and putting on a happy face to hide the pain. But I've never seen done as fast and as convicingly as Jimmy had done it today. He didn't take any comfort from me at all. He said he didn't need any, and maintained that everything was fine. Then he just looked at himself in the mirror, fixed his hair a little, and patted me on the shoulder as he walked out. All he said was, "Thanks. I'm fine though, really." I can't put my finger on it, but this was excessively weird. Even for Jimmy. I hope he doesn't take me turning him down on his offer to hang out as a big rejection or anything. Maybe I should make it up to him sometime. It'll make him feel better.

My parents seem to be back on speaking terms again. Just like always, no make-up kisses or discussions about what caused the problem in the first place. Just a temporary end to the feud, and the waiting period for the anger to wear off. I 'could' be worried about that too, but I suppose it's better than having them fight. So I should count my blessings while I have them.

The phone's ringing, and I think it's Joanna again. Which means my night is overwith. I guess I'll have to write more tomorrow. Adios.

-Billy

 

May 27th

-Tuesdays usually suck ass, you know that? It's like, you've already lost the fun vibe you had going over the weekend by the end of Monday, and yet it's as far away from Friday as you can get without it actually BEING Monday. If that makes any sense. Anyway, today was kind of a 'blah' day. It rained pretty much from sun up to sun down, and everybody was in a gloomy mood, me included. The only person who seemed to NOT be having a crummy day, believe it or not, was Jimmy. Jimmy came into school smiling today. For the first time in a long time. It was like somebody had put fairy dust in his chocolate milk or something. I didn't get it. The more I think I have Jimmy LaPlane figured out, the weirder he gets.

Anyway, he actually had a smile for me when I first saw him in the halls this morning. Even held his hand up for a high five. No reason really...he just did it because he 'felt' good I guess. You know? I thought about asking him why he was so giggly all of the sudden, but decided to drop it. I didn't want to jinx the good mood afterall. So I gave him his high five and smiled at the fact that he had turned a completely 180* on me. I guess whatever answer he was looking for, he had just gotten it. Weird.

I only wish I was as lucky.

Sam was especially moody today. Ready to snap at just about anything I said to him this morning. Even worse later on in the afternoon. Then...at one point around lunchtime, Brandon walked past us without saying anything, and I thought Sam was going to litterally jump on him or something. I think it was just his current mood or something, but he was taking a huge offense to this constant shunning from Brandon. They didn't even really KNOW each other, how could they be enemies already? I simply CAN'T understand why the two of them just don't get along. I mean, me and Sam have everything in common. Me and Brandon have a bunch of stuff in common too, from what I know of him. So you would think that it would be logical that they have stuff in common with each other. But I guess logic doesn't always play a part in how you choose your friends, enemies, and loves of your life. Some things just happen for the fuck of it.

It was an odd place to be in though. Between the 'prettiest' boy in school and my very best friend on Earth. Naturally, I'd stay at Sam's side no matter what It's something he's earned after putting up with me for so long and remaining a friend. But...this strange little conflict made me realize something about Brandon that I hadn't noticed before. I think that I was....slightly 'more' than infatuated with him at the moment. I mean...this wasn't some weird crush that I felt because he was cute and because I wanted sex from him. (Of course, those things helped a great deal, I'm sure!) But in my heart, I missed his smile. I missed the sweet way his voice would lift when he talked to me with a smile. I missed the way he'd try to look me in the eye and talk while locking up his bike in the mornings...knowing damn well he couldn't do both at the same time. I liked him, sure. I wanted him, definitely. I missed him too. But...this feeling was different. It was much less vague. It was this imaginary point where his sensual body, his personality, his intelligence, his wit, and his friendship...all collided and transformed into something else entirely. Looking at Brandon with my eyes coated in infatuation...it made me squirm inside. He really was 'special'...you know that.

I wonder if this is going to put a new spin on my interactions with him from now on. Because, in all honesty, this was the first time I ever thought about really persuing Brandon before. Ack! What a FREAKY feeling!!! I really shouldn't be thinking like that, but I'm horny and I'm young. I guess I'm entitled.

Anyway, I'm gonna call Sam and see if I can talk him into putting on a happy face for tomorrow. He was so sullen earlier that I worry...you know? Anyway, gotta jet. Later.

-Billy

 

May 28th

- Okay, I just read what I wrote yesterday, before writing this out tonight. And the events of today are pretty much the EXACT opposite of what happened yesterday! It's like the whole universe got flipped over and I was stuck on the wrong side of reality. The only thing consistent was Sam's bad attitude, which I had failed in trying to make him feel better. At least he started venting today, though. Knowing Sam...that's his first step to recovery usually. He told me about how his mom was riding him about his room and the dishes and getting responsibility. Dun dun DUNNN!!!! I've heard THAT talk before! The old 'responsibility' speech is reserved for those times when they make you get a job you hate, or go take care of Gramma for a week, or when something really BIG needs to be cleaned this weekend and they want you to break your back doing it. Evidently, it ended up with the two of them 'fighting' about it. Which always seemed so taboo to me. "Fighting with your parents?" Huh? Is that for REAL??? I can't fight with my parents! They've known me longer than I've been ALIVE! They've got enough ammunition to use against me to run me out of town if they wanted to. They controlled EVERYTHING! and I can't imagine really 'fighting' with them, so to speak. I just kinda whine and pout when they lay down the law about what's going to happen and why.

I have no clue as to what would happen if I ever challenged my parents beyond their level of patience...but I would ASSUME that it would be a fate worse than one I could ever imagine, so I stray from that course of action. I guess Sam just has a different relationship with his mom than I do with mine. I want things to get better though. If for no other reason than to keep my best friend from being so cranky all the time.

Brandon? I walked over to him today, feeling really nervous this time. I'm talking...'nervous' here! In a way that I never had been before. Again, he had totally flipped over on me emotionally. It almost seemed like it hurt him to talk to me. And when I asked him what was wrong, all he wanted to do was find an excuse to get away from me. Considering the fact that I was suddenly looking at him with this new sense of hormone induced confusion....I thought it might have been my fault. But thinking back to it, I can't honestly think of a single word that I might have used to offend or insult him. I don't even know what I WANT from him anymore! I just.....I 'need' him, you know? Not having him treat me the way he did before when things were 'normal' is slowly murdering me inside! And I don't know why we can't at least be FRIENDS! Just FRIENDS? Jesus....is that so much to ask? Whatever. The way he was acting, I almost didn't want him back. Fuck him if he can't talk to me. Who needs the stress of crying over somebody who won't cry over you. That's what I say.

Joanna, instead of being her usual talkative self, was 'too busy' to really be bothered with me today. I can't explain why that stung so badly, but it did. I felt like she brushed me off or something, and it kinda pissed me off. I guess she was just busy today. She didn't seem to be doing it on purpose, or to be mean. But I really didn't need to be ignored today. So I was kinda hot with her too. And Jimmy, who had once come in smiling and grinning from ear to ear, was suddenly staring at the floor with teary eyes again today. No one was even bothering him this time around! He was just upset for no reason! For some reason that just angered me more. So I didn't even speak to him today. I don't 'get' him at all.

Anyway, shitty day, shitty people, shitty WEEK so far! I'm going to bed before it gets any worse. I am LONGING for the weekend right now!

-Billy

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Funny how life throw curve balls like that. Day to day we never really know where we stand! ;(

Sounds like Jimmy is fighting with Depression. Wonder if all is ok at home? Bullying can be awful but if he's got no support to fall back on, he could really be in a world of pain. :(

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