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Chapter 39

The drive to the airport was quiet. I stared out the rear window of the cab as we buzzed past cars and buildings and people living their lives. I now knew I hadn’t been living mine. I had acquiesced to being who everyone else thought I should be, all the while wishing I could just be me, whoever that was. Maybe I would find myself in Hawaii. It certainly wasn’t happening back home with my family.

I smiled. Everything changed with that one phone call. Amanda Franklin had left me millions, but all the money in the world was worthless compared to her priceless wisdom. Love fully and live for others.

I was ready to love. First up — myself. It was slow going, stepping away from my self-imposed exile and venturing out into the world. And doing it as a gay man. Sort of. I didn’t really know what I was doing, but I had to try. Hopefully I wouldn’t have to do it alone. Sharon and Billy had accepted me for who I was. Maybe others would too.

I wanted to love someone else, like Amanda had loved Patrick and Phillip. Billy convinced me a gay man could have a normal life with a forever love of his own. I needed to love and be loved like that. I wanted more than sex. I craved a real family, a place where I belonged, where I was wanted, with someone who needed me in his life.

I was ready to live for others. I had tools, now. More than I could count. I also had people in my life who believed in me. I just needed to believe in myself. It was still a strange thought, that I could somehow do good things and change other people’s lives for the better. But this new purpose sparked a great hope in me - that I could make a difference, just like Amanda.

My stomach churned and my hands trembled where they rested on the seat. Such lofty dreams scared me. What if I stepped out and failed? What if I never found a forever love? What if I couldn’t make a difference?

I shook my head and gritted my teeth, my hands morphing into fists. Enough was enough. I had lived in fear of one kind or another all my life, but no more. It was time to channel those fears into forward progress.

I was ready to do it afraid.

Author's Note:

Thank you for reading Awakening Forever. I hope you enjoyed it as much as I enjoyed writing it.

Jack's story is not over. I have written several more volumes to follow this one, and I will be publishing them soon. If you would like to keep up with my progress on writing projects and other random musings, I write a newsletter (usually weekly). You can sign up for this newsletter on my website at: www.jackschaeffer.com

Thanks again for reading, and remember: love fully, live for others, and do it afraid.

Copyright © 2017 Jack Schaeffer; All Rights Reserved.
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Just now, Bndmetl said:

Yay! Go Jack! Go Jack! Go Jack!

Wait which one? There's the character, the author and me😀. I'm kidding now for a plane ride:D

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1 minute ago, Wesley8890 said:

Wait which one? There's the character, the author and me😀. I'm kidding now for a plane ride:D

 

Hmmm, warm nuts.

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Well darn!  It seems we have to wait for book 2 before his vacation gets off the ground!  

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1 hour ago, Jack Schaeffer said:

It you've made it this far, thank you for reading my story. This is only the beginning of the Forever saga. So much more story to come. Thank you for all the wonderful comments, and if you are so inclined, leaving a review for the story would be awesome. 

 

Oh...and if you tried to signup for my newsletter on my website and it didn't work, I fixed it today :) Please try again, so you'll know my progress with new writing as well as future edits and publishing efforts.

 

Look for "Awakening Forever" in eBook and print in October 2017 wherever fine books are sold.

Thanks Jack - it's been a blast re-reading the beginning of Forever! 

 

Are you going to be publishing the next book to this site soon or will we have to wait until you have prepared it for eBook/print production?

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30 minutes ago, phoenix_0826 said:

Thanks Jack - it's been a blast re-reading the beginning of Forever! 

 

Are you going to be publishing the next book to this site soon or will we have to wait until you have prepared it for eBook/print production?

I haven't started the process of editing the next book. I am spending July writing more new content, then August will be editing the next book. I have learned I can't edit and write new stuff at the same time. Different sides of my brain are needed for each.

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33 minutes ago, phoenix_0826 said:

Thanks Jack - it's been a blast re-reading the beginning of Forever! 

 

I second that sentiment.  Please keep up the good work and looking forward to more. 

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Wonderful story. Can't wait for the continuing adventures of Jack.

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Thank you for giving us this story and these interesting people.  I look forward to reading the rest.  

 

I also want to say that Jack should remember he's already started helping people and he seems to be good at it so far.  He is really one of life's good people.

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40 minutes ago, Jack Schaeffer said:

I haven't started the process of editing the next book. I am spending July writing more new content, then August will be editing the next book. I have learned I can't edit and write new stuff at the same time. Different sides of my brain are needed for each.

Thanks! I completely understand, I'm definitely looking forward to the new content - I'm looking forward to the birthday celebration and the big move. Knowing the plan I'll attempt to sit patiently on my hands with regards to looking for the next book here, but now I'm spoiled because I really love this format and the ease of feedback and communication here!

 

I think you picked the perfect stopping point for Awakening - this was a prelude, the story of Jack's metamorphosis, the next book will really get us into the meat and bones of Forever. I can't believe how lucky your new readers are to experience all this for the first time!!!

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As an epilogue, it lacks a notation that this is the conclusion of this part of Jack’s story. (It could say ‘The End.’ Jack’s adventures will continue in the next book of the ‘Forever’ saga.)

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 Thank you so much. I am very happy I chose your story to read.

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26 minutes ago, Foster said:

 Thank you so much. I am very happy I chose your story to read.

And I am very happy you enjoyed it. Thanks for reading :)

 

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 Fabulous story! Thank you so much. I can hardly wait for book 2, 3, 4, 5....      :2thumbs:

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You are a good man, Jack Schaeffer, the author! I read what your goal is with writing stories. I really like this story! Pay it forward is a good thing to do!

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wow great story. I spent most of my day off reading it lol Can't wait for more chapters in Jack's life

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Great Story Jack!  Your ability to blend the setting into the story (St. Louis, Chicago, Denver) was excellent.  I live just outside St. Louis on the east side and could relate to your family..sigh.  I will look forward to the next chapters...

 

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